The bitter/sweet Bride

So I’ve gone back and forth in my head if I should even post this. And quite honestly , I’m glad I’m coming forward.

I want to address a little bump in the road for my husband and I. I’m speaking about, infertility.
For those of you who know me, please respect our privacy and not bring it up to us or to others.

We dated for 5 1/2 years before he popped the question and had a short (5 month) engagement. Why? Well, we lived together for already 4 years at that point and had already decided, we wanted to be a family. I’m talking about having some babies!
The struggle is real and I wanted to blog about it because I know, there are so many women and men going through the same struggle we are going through.
Not getting pregnant!

I don’t even know where else to start but from the beginning.

My husband and I moved in together a year and a half after dating. As soon as we moved in, we decided- we want kids. So we tried.
I wouldn’t say we gave it our all like we are now with OPKs and BBT- ing and watching what we eat,drink, etc. But, we were officially “trying to conceive.”
We tried for a year before I decided to get into the doc’s. She said I had low progesterone levels and also a tilted uterus but that was nothing to be concerned about ( the uterus part of it.)
I was sad, we were sad and decided to just give it a break.
One year goes by and we get back into it really wanting a baby. Not that it ever left our minds or hearts, we just decided it was good to try again.
I go back to the doc and she tells me my hormone levels are fine now. Try another year and if no luck, come see me. In fact, have him make an appointment too.
So we try this time again, still no babies!

At this point I’m in getting blood tests, pelvic exams and ultrasounds every few months to make sure I’m still ovulating and that my hormones are still ok.

So now my husband is up to bat and strikes out; to put it in a kinder way. He just really thought if it’s supposed to happen, it will. I think he was scared to hear he may be the reason as to why it wasn’t happening for us.

Two years just about pass by and we talk about marriage. We’re in love, it’s been 5 1/2 years, we want to be, one. And of course babies come up, again. We get married and immediately, husband says
” we’re officially trying to conceive.”

We allowed 3 months to go by and this time- he goes in to get tested. I was so happy he took the step. His analysis came back great, and he was ” good to go.”

So we sit here 6 months into marriage, still no baby. I’m ovulating every month, his sperm is healthy, my hormone levels are fine.

It’s just heart breaking every month. We do whatever we can to get pregnant.
I’m hoping along this journey I meet others who can relate because, no one I know personally can.

This should stay interesting….